Tuesday, August 09, 2005

I had a whole other post planned for today and then BAM.

Do you ever wake up thinking that today is going to be a good day and then hours later realize just how wrong you were. It seems I am never prepared for life's sharp turns. Suffice it to say that along with quite a few other blog friends out there, my day is not going so well.

It seems there is a theme of stoms and weathering them going on out there with my compatriots and I would like to proclaim that I am in the midst of my own. As I look from horizon to horizon I am not seeking a speck of light or really a hope of the clouds parting.

Part of me wants to walk outside, look up to the sky and ask God, "What in the world are you thinking?" This question may seem harsh but at its core is my heart wanting to know not really the why but the what that He wants from me in this. What am I to learn? What are you trying to show me? What are you trying to change in me?

The next thing I would say is "HELP". Show me that you are here. Show me that you are bigger than all of this. Show me that you are in control. Show me that there is light at the end of this and that this is in your plan. Show me your grace. Show me your hands holding me in the middle of all this.

I guess one good thing in this I don't feel all alone in the storm.

13 Comments:

Blogger jes said...

Ummmm...whoa. Deep.

God knows what He is doing, even if you don't.

8/09/2005 3:25 PM  
Blogger steve said...

I am grabbing the boat... I think Ben is throwing together a couple Oars (and fishing tackle) and I think my buddy Chris is bringing the life jackets...

Thank God Eddo is doing Ok today... I just dont think his "three-and-a-calves" would fit in the boat

8/09/2005 3:25 PM  
Blogger Katie said...

Thanks Jes, He does know, unfortunately I struggle with Him not clueing me in all the time. I guess that is called faith, huh?

Steve - thanks I needed that laugh

8/09/2005 3:34 PM  
Blogger jes said...

you know, sometimes i don't clue you in, either. for example: you didn't know that i would email you or call you today, so you didn't know that you needed to be there to answer the phone.

however, i am telling you now, just so you know: i called you today. and i emailed you. AND YOU HAVEN'T RESPONDED YET.

8/09/2005 3:52 PM  
Blogger Amstaff Mom said...

Hang in there K-T. I learned these verses when I was about 8 at camp. It was the Living Bible translation, but I've never forgotten them. So let's see how the memory does...

James 1:2-5

"Dear brothers, is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy. For when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow, so let it grow. Don't try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete. If you want to know what God wants you to do, then ask Him. And He will gladly tell you, for He is always ready to give a bountiful supply of wisdom to all who ask Him. He will not resent it.

There, I did it! My fingers were working hard to keep up with the tune in my head! I'll even sing it for you when I get to meet you. If you really really really want me to.

8/09/2005 4:12 PM  
Blogger Ben said...

I hear you Katie...

It's okay that we have a rough day or week everynow and then... Patience is not my strong suit... so I can understand your "What am I to learn? What are you trying to show me? What are you trying to change in me?" I don't think that it is harsh to ask him, "What in the world are you thinking..." He knows what we are thinking anyways... approaching God in a direct manner is not a bad thing... as long as we aren't questioning his sovereignty. I must admit that I struggle with the be still and know part... but never the less, I know that I can rest in him... I have no idea where he is leading me... but where ever it is... I will follow.

Of course you're not alone... God gives us each other to sharpen and encourage each other...

As iron sharpens iron...

Were in the same boat... here's an oar. ;)

8/09/2005 4:24 PM  
Blogger Katie said...

Thanks guys, I feel like I somehow jumped on the bad day bandwagon but I am BLESSED by your encouragement.

8/09/2005 4:34 PM  
Blogger jes said...

hey, jcol! I want you to sing it!

8/09/2005 4:35 PM  
Blogger steve said...

(i will work up the guitar part for her Jes)

8/09/2005 5:16 PM  
Blogger Amstaff Mom said...

I sang it as a camper, and then we did the same theme one year when I was a junior counselor, so I had to get up front and play it on the keyboard. I liked the guitar version better. And don't expect me to post any audio clips like Jubal.

8/09/2005 5:29 PM  
Blogger whaaaat! said...

Speaking of singing a song, how about "The sun'll come out to-morrow, bet your bottom dollar that to-morrow, there'll be sun". I know that always works when my wife or one of my kids is having a bad day. Not sure if it's the song really. It might be my off-tune attempt at singing it, surely not.
Anyway, I'll say a prayer for you too in case the song didn't help.:)
BTW-It sounds like jes and amstaff have nothing better to do today than to listen, pray, sing a song of encouragement, etc.

8/09/2005 5:50 PM  
Blogger JLR said...

katie,
I'm so sorry that things aren't going so well. Things aren't so great here in our neck of the woods, either, so we can sympathize. And at least you have a great blog family that's praying for you.

8/09/2005 11:04 PM  
Blogger Jayleigh said...

Yep that's what faith is all about. Choosing to believe in His promises even though you can't see light at the end of the tunnel.

I pray that things get better for you soon.

8/10/2005 8:34 AM  

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